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Time just passed like nobody's business.

Tomorrow is yet another sickening day like always. I am so boring.

I'm so jealous of the graduated peeps. SO JEALOUS. I want to be like them too! But i've got a ONE fucking year to go before i could be like them! WTH.

I still think a lot. I thought i didn't think that much already. But i guess i'm wrong once again. Who cares. i've gt to think think and think. I can't stop myself, neither can anyone else. They say if one thinks too much, will get white hair.... OMG. ok. whatever.

I can't wait for wednesday to come. why? Because i'm meeting darling leng ah! Wahahah.
I am not only physically tired, i am also mentally drained. Completely.

How long I have to bear with all these craps? When will I be free again? Out of veggie's control?
I really really don't know what to do anymore, i'm just so lost... so so lost. When i think too much about it, it brings tears to my eyes. I know among us, there's definitely ppl who supported veggie. And i look down on them, i DESPISE them. Like veggie, they are NOT fit to belong here.

How many times a day do i have to ponder on it? It is not worth me crying for it, but it makes my heart hurts so bad i don't know what to do but cry. Useless freak i am. Hopeless.

It wasn't the same anymore, i just knew it. Things are getting from bad the worse and the end of the world will be reaching to us any minute. Its Armageddon.

My life is not like any others. It just means Death.
I went to Cine yesterday to look for my cousin. Reached there like around 1pm++ and i tell ya, i ate freakin' alot of things. ( i so regret ='( )

We were so bored so we took photos to entertain ourselves. I mean, how bored can you get sitting at a place for like 10 - 12 hours every week? Oh man, i pity her. =x haha. ya here's some stupid photos we took..












ya we look idiotic. =)




















oops.












and this is C/Sheryl. =)












haha. look at the HUGE necklace i put on her. it is UGLY .

ok. thats it. There's loads more thou, but i can't possibly put them all up =)

DAMN THE CONSTRUCTIONS DOWNSTAIR!
Went to see the musical just now. Meet shawn and xx at compass point before heading down to conference hall. Met the rest at tanjong pagar around 7+pm. So ya, and we made our way to the hall.
Rudy helped us take all the tickets. HE said he couldn't take the tickets in the end he took all.. like wth. ok wateva. Hassan said i'm a ROSE. WAHAHA. Ya and rudy add in that i'm a chicken shit flower... WTF.

The concert was nice, seriously, and the puppets and mascots are so cute. I mean it looks like real lor. They played the Flight Of The Bumblebee. thumbs up man. power.. The show ended around 9.30pm and we get our cramped ass off the couch and get out of that freezing cold place... Oh btw, the host of the concert is SOOO sexy. =D haha. ... and we went home. that's it.

what a boring entry it is.

I need to cut my freaking hair. =)
ok. the end.
CERTAIN fucking good for nothing people are SO DAMN thick-skinned. I will patiently sit at a corner and watch how they fucking suffer , fall and shattered into million pieces! I'll LOVE to see how they will crrrawwwlll to one dark little filthy corner and sob their hearts out. I'll LOVE to see how others will laugh their ass out at them right into their face. Pointing their delicate fingers right at their fugly face and LAUGHED like one crazy ass. Some people IQ are just pathetic ZERO, their brains just fucking cannot function like normal THINK like normal and ACT like normal. 'Cause they always LOVE to lie to themselves and always dream that they will fucking get it, but they KNEW they COULDN'T. I can't believe such pathetic humans exist. It seriously pisses me off , knowing that i HAVE to work with such useless freaks! Adding on to my already miserable life! If only i could knock their freaking brains with my hammer ! I will SWEAR i'll knock the fucking shit out of them! ARGH. I can't help it but pondering over such useless stuffs! I could actually think of happier thoughts rather than ALL THESE shits but i SIMPLY CAN'T HELP IT. My heart is like freaking burning with fire, i gt this urge to take one butcher knife and slaughter everyone i see on the streets! bloody thoughts...

Pardon me with such vulgar entry. like i say, i can't help it.


" i hope you meant it when you say you still love us. Not that i don't believe you , but under such situation, i'm hard to get convinced. Afterall you weren't there for us for a long time. Yes, perhaps it IS a long story to tell, but i hope you will tell us... Maybe it can at least put our confused minds at ease. Perhaps everytime our tired faces shows you guys that we arent happy or what, but it isnt true. Really. We were so happy when we see you guys, too happy to show it out. Not everything can be seen from our faces."
I suddenly feel so afraid. I was like reading my harry potter 3rd book just now, and this thought just came into my mind....
"omg, you're graduating nxt yr already, ain't that fast? Next year this month you will be sitting for the o'lvl! like wow! and you can finally get the hell outta this fuckin' school!! YEAH. but OH-MY-GOSH, next year is ********** (i feel like an idiot typing * <- this , anyway..) and will you be able to at least manage to scrape through it? at least grabbing a you-know-what? will you be able to do it? WILL YOU!? there's nobody helping you guys anymore! HA HA HA. will you lose the reputation of it!?"

i feel so so scared. I feel like running away from it. Yes, i'm useless, 'cause i dont know what to do with them anymore. we need to make them happy, crack stupid jokes which is actually not funny at all just to cheer them up, make them feel like it is fun, make sure they know this know that... GOD DAMMIT. i seriously dont know what to do.. there use to be some ppl who really know how to crack funny jokes but now is no more. No longer with us anymore. I'm at a lost.

I miss them, i miss the seniors, i miss last year, i miss it when i'm sec1 ( not the part where i get scoldings every now and then =X) i miss everything that happens before that vegetable monster came in and destroy everything. Why can't things be like before? Why must we face such horrible things. Why i can't born a few years earlier... i rather suffer more than going through all these shits. Is these some sort of "destiny" that we must face? Or i should say this is a nightmare that i'm having right now, and i still haven woken up from it.

I want to withdraw from this. I want to wake up from this nightmare. I want to turn the time back.
Because I feel so alone right now. I feel like we're stranded on an pathetic island with nothing on it, except our will to survive. Sometimes i really wanted to give up. I don't want to face that over again. But i cant just abandon them just because of my own good. But tell me, tell me God, tell me how in the fuckin' world am i suppose to survive like THAT? Unless, unless there's a super miracle happen. Something which will kill that vegetable monster and slaughter IT alive, skin IT, tear IT, rip IT, burn IT, cook IT and just dump IT away.

If in this world, killings are allow, the first person i'll kill will be vegetable monster. I make sure not a single bit of IT is left in this world. Then i'll kill IT'S WIVES. I'll too make sure IT'S WIVES bits are also not left.

I simply had enough of this.

You won't understand how we feel bastard. You'll never will. cause you never care about us before and you supported IT. I cant help but hating you. You made me hate you, i didn't want to. I use to think you were great... MY FOOT. you are such a disappointment. To think we supported you last time... you make us feel that it was the biggest mistake we've ever done.

I've beginning to understand the real meaning of hatred. I've beginning to understand the definitions of two-headed snakes cause there's simply so many living examples right now.

And i hope ppl will wake up and stop being so selfish. Don't think that you are so bloody top-on-the-list important candidate and we freakin' need you. If you so happen-ly think this way then you can now jump off the building and die. No one will cares.

and we hate beggin'.
It SUPPOSE to be a sectionalon tuesday, however, under our careful and thoughtful planning we decided to turn everything into an outing. WAHAHA. We did have a talk before everything, I mean, i seriously don't know what is going to happen to us, what will fall onto us in the near future.Why has everything been turned upside down just because of a monster? [and i seriously mean MONSTER]Are we gonna just suffer like that? HAIS. Forget it man. After all those talking...

WHOAHO~ We went to rent bicycles~ Twin bikes and some rent single ones. So i shared with Syarif and he does all the cycling while i slacking behind and putting my nice legs on the bike instead of the paddle. haha. We ride to the jetty and took some photos.. here -

ok i look somewhat idiotic, but who cares. =x
don't you just love them?

After that we ride further to who-knows-where-we-are. And decided to take a u-turn back

AHAHA. Asyraf is gonna suffer riding with fizah. =XX

cycle cycle~

And after cycling we went to eat. Carissa, Faizah, Huisin and Clarence went home. After eating we went to the cliff. Again, phototaking time. =D
i look stupid again.
hafizah and me of cos.

Here are some crappy photos i took. I was bored you see..

actually this was taken by xunxiang =)
there's more thou, but all are just craps =D

and WHEN WHEN WHEN am i going to thailand!!!!

I simply can't STAND HER. NOT only me, obviously there's a lot more others that finds her an eyesore. She is such a disgrace to us. What the fuck. Like i said before, you will NEVER, and i mean NEVER succeed in whatever you do. Who do you think you are? Big fking arrogant bitch. The sight of YOU make us all PISSED. knnccb.

Woke up at 7.45am this morning for extra amaths lesson. It was such a waste of time, recap-ing quadratic equations. He could just start on circular measure right away, was simply no mood to listen. Was even more moody when i think of the fugly freakin' pictures i saw yesterday. EEW. What a bitch. Disgusting!!!

Going East Coast tomorrow. And good thing i don't have to go down into the water... 'cause, well, ya know. =) Even if don't have, i also don't feel like getting wet tomorrow. So i guess i'll just cycle for the whole day.

I seriously seriously pray that God will do something about everything that is happening now. i REALLY really buay tahan liao. What kind of stupid joke is this. I wonder why is all these things happening. It is really making our life god damn difficult and miserable.

I'll personally make sure she'll be the best of the best. =) Go girl!
After 3 days of super-duper tiring days , I finally get to rest today. But just TODAY, sadly i'm gonna drain my energy again tomorrow, which is bad. Really bad. I'm seriously freaking tired.

When when when can i go to Hat Yai!? Daddy still haven't confirm the dates with us and i wonder if he still want to go or not. He doenst seems like he's interested or what.. He's just living it off day by day and making ME waiting for it day by day. I really really wanted to go for a shopping spree over there. I mean the things there are like fuckin' cheap can. I went there once when i was like P5 and i bought SO many things. And those things doesn't fits me anymore. So... I WANNA GO THERE AGAIN! god dammit.

I wonder WHY is the sec1s which is soon-to-be sec2s still acting so freakin' childish. Pardon me if you guys are reading it, but thats the fact! I mean you have been with us for almost a year and you are acting like you just joined for a day. What The FUCK? Can you guys PLEASE stop acting like this!? We are having a difficult time making you all to be close with us. When we are sec 1 we put in the effort to be close with the seniors. You guys DON'T CARE. You all are really making our already pathetic life even more miserable. Please grow up people, PLS.
Freakin' hell man you all.

I think i'll ask brother to book the Harry Potter later. I went gv website checked just now ALOT have already been booked and if we still don't hurry, i don't think we have the chance to watch it in cinema already. And i haven't read the 3rd book yet. argh. I'm becoming harry fanatic nowadays because of that new movie. But seriously it's freakin' nice. really.

I want sushi. Hui ah, are we going sakae or not. I'm longing for it...........
sushi sushi SUSHIIIIIII~~
you still sux la har. face it. you dont have the figure and watsoeva. stop emphasizing on the word NEWWWWW. we are nt deaf ok u bitch. oh, by the way, u also dont have the privilege to do things others are nt suppose to do OK? you gt so many things for us to criticise that we can actually make a book out of it. u are just some stupid cunning two faced fox. hais. humans like you, wat a waste of land space on earth for u. wtf!? haha.

i've gt to pay like 4 bucks to return the expired already dvds and vcd back to video ezy. what the hell. and after a trip to rivervale mall i still need to u-turn back to take 88 to amk. is like so far can.
...
i gt no mood to do anything la. wanto sit there and dont move a single muscle. YAWNS.

now i know, how it feels like to receive those "oh-pity-me" msgs. once or twice it will be fine but if is like keep on sending, i get really pissed off and fed-up. but anyway, is over now. i truely hope she is feeling better and hopefully she's getting on fine.
i'm like so sian can

u sucks. u sucks. U SUCKS. u worth NOTHING! u DON'T deserve ANY respect. i tell ya, i WOULD if i can to walk up to you and slap u hard on ur filthy ugly face and tell u how stupidly fugly u are and u don't deserve ANYTHING. i'm REALLY boiling. u seriously SUCKS TO THE CORE. stop acting arrogant. u are NOT up to it AT ALL. FACE IT. u cant succeed. U NEVER WILL.
and i mean wat i post just now, u are NOT FIT to wear THAT. u dont even fit to TOUCH IT. cos it doesnt belongs to you, and it NEVER WILL BE.
u are really really
nothing to me !

F*KING SHIT MAN. why is heaven playing such a BIG JOKE. STOP FOOLING US AROUND. This has been going on for half a year and i had enough!! DAMN.
first there's NO ONE and i mean NO ONE here for us anymore. second, nobody bothers abt us. and finally nobody WANTS to bother abt us! wat crap.

why must this happen only this year? why is all those worthless creatures getting big headed and getting us all pissed off. why isnt anybody doing anything. why cant all these stop and let the sun shines brightly and cheerfully at us AGAIN? why are we going through all these shits. why is there no one cares abt us anymore. why. why. why.

why is life so pathetic.
why is there so many whys.
WHY.







all those flashbacks. all those memories. you're still in my mind, i can't seems to erase you away. you are in me, still.

oh! and i don't welcome people like you in here. Get it?
this is like MY blog. so scram off .
i REALLY had enough. i mean, seriously, wat the FUCK is wrong with u!! Don't u have ur own choices? can u stop acting like this? once or twice it hurts me to see u like this but now NO MORE. it PISSED ME OFF. sorry. but really, imagine i'm YOU and i'm like acting this way every now and then... how would u look at me? i bet u will be more pissed. i had it. and i'm not tolerating it ANYMORE.

i don understand.. some ppl skin are just so THICKED, or perhaps their boobs oops, is too big. u don have the right to put on that particular 'u-noe-wat' on u. u don even have the figure ok. u are just ruining our 'u-noe-wat'.
gosh. i really hope someone will put an end to this... even though i just left one more year... i still think is too much for me to go through. and i'm seriously getting fatter again.
met up with cousin today... went to town and had our lunch ( that includes my dinner, i'm like so damn full) at nydc. i had a HUGEEEEE cup of ice chocolate milk. and i MEAN HUGE. and a 'three amigos' pasta. is REALLY full. i had it at 3+pm and till now i'm still full.

ya. and we went to catch a movie... skeleton key. it was nice..ya. but the ending is nt wat i like... is a big twist to the whole story. nt bad la, the movie. then went home...
gosh.
i SERIOUSLY donno wat to blog.
this blog is pathetic.