Thursday, July 07, 2005
i'll be
away for a
short while.
short term
hiatus =)
Sunday, July 03, 2005
too much things had been happening. its coming one by one and things are like getting worse each time. why cant everything be in peace and at least i can have a proper rest? i've been so restless ever since school reopen. i nv concentrate in class and i keep daydreaming. i donno wat is gonna happen to me next. i just feels that i am gonna flung my final yr once again like i did in midyr. getting horrible results that i can simply tear it and burn it. life now isnt easy anymore i mean to me i feel that 24hrs is nt enuff for me. so much has to be done yet so little time. i don even noe wat i'm thinking now, like stuck somewhere in the middle of nowhere without knowing where i should go next. where will be my destination.
i find myself so annoying. so irritating. i feel that is so hard to be human. have to think this think that do this and that. so troublesome. and yet being human life will be more interesting rather than cats and dogs? .. ok i'm toking crap here.
i donno how am i suppose to survive for the rest of my sec sch life. i seriously donno wat to do anymore. next week is already oral exam. but i don feel anything at all. i just gt this feeling that i came to sch nt for lesson or studies but came for band. like wat i did in june holidays. and i have to wake up everyday at 5.30am. go for lessons without any strength left in me anymore. i tried my best to stay awake and focus but sometimes.. i find that i cant do it. i really cant.
life become so troubled for me. too many things is going on and too many things i need to cope with. i guess it wouldnt be easy.
i yawn this morning
filled my stomach in the afternoon.
laugh and hitting each other in the bus.
run thru once and had kfc.
run thru one more time again.
get on the bus and off we go.
joked ard.
reach sch.
tired.
run thru last time.
went home.
laugh like idiot in mac.
had some tears.
had some doubts.
smile a lil.
nod a lil.
and off we go.
think a lil in bus.
worried.
alight. ran for awhile for god knows wat reason.
walk in fast pace.
reach home.
tired.
very tired.
chat a lil.
bathe.
hopeless. =)