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This skin is ugly. Gotta change it away as soon as i have the time. =)

Went ice-skating yesterday with my lovely swans. HAHA. ok. I was very late according to them because they reach ard 5+pm i think and i reach like 6.30pm. =D So we meet at jurong entertainment centre. We proceed up to the Fuji ice palace and i tell ya is FREAKING COLD.

I started off BAD. I don't know how to rollerblade so it means i do not know the basic at all. I fell the most overall. I hurt my butt, leng's skate ran across my hand twice and my thumb is pain with 4 nice holes. I just fucking hell couldn't lift my right feet up... once i lift it up, i lose my balance.

It was fun, a nice xmas. We stayed till closing time which is 10pm. And we went to hunt for food. Mind you we haven't taken our dinner. Suppose to have long john, but it was closed. And the smartass suggest we go to newton. And guess what, we sit for 18 stops and we reach newton, IT WAS CLOSE DOWN FOR GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON. Freak. We then walked all the way to orchard, settle down at paragon's coffee bean which open until 2am. So we ordered some drinks, i have my ultimate ice blend as usual, as FATTENING. 2 slices of cakes, one carrot cake one tiramisu. Tiramisu has NO TASTE at all,i wonder why. We sat and talk and talk and talk... until 2 smth. Steph gave us some interpretations about our character and stuff like that... i said there was NO swans at all, i take back , i'll put 2 swans now. haha.

Took cab home.

I bathe at the kitchen's toilet. Did i mention that the light is faulty? It flickers and is DIM. I bathe there for the sake of warm water and it took alot of guts. The damn light keep flickering it scares the hell outta me.

I slp at 3am. 3 am! i watch too much movies.
Yes, yes i totally agree with her. It's fucking time for us to wake up. Slap me all you want, if that will make me open my eyes wide enough to see what is happening around me, i'll be more than delighted to let you slap. I'm serious.Is not easy to swallow my tears back. I tried to control, and if i can, i wouldn't shed one single drop of tears infront of them anymore.

I don't mind if she really change ... , i will be very glad to hear that. Is up to us to decide and i'm not going to help him say another word ANYMORE. If he's not going to do anything about it, then SO BE IT. I already did my best in everything.
I don't know what i'm talking. i'm confused.

I'm scared, i'm worried, i just totally pooie about everything now. Everything sucks.

Don't comment on what i said, don't even ask. I won't be in the mood to entertain anybody. Because i've heard more than enough... I need to wake up and they need to wake up too.

Wonderwoman '' stand one row and i slap you all one by one''

Nobody will understand anything.
Now and then they will always have a go at each other. I know they didn't want it but they just couldn't held on any longer... I rephrase, SHE couldn't held on. She will always sob and complain how bad is he and stuff like that. I've heard enough but I can't tell her off like.. " EH, shut up la! I wanna read my harry potter right!?". Ya.
I don't know when will she be coming back...She didn't call home today. Why is this happening huh?

I went Bugis with my dad today. We bought new sandals from leather ark and i bought a hell lot of snacks from japan home. My waist is expanding AGAIN. I bet i'll be a fatso soon.

I remember so VIVIDLY i put my handphone into the paperbag i was holding on to. And when i in the lorry, i don't really rmb whether did i take my handphone out or not. Until i reached home and i realised, MY HANDPHONE IS GONE! WTH. I was so nervous i called to my phone, if is in the hse i will be able to hear it. But no, there's no sound, nothing. And then i quickly call my dad, he went to sentosa... haha. Attend his boss de son's wedding. Sentosa leh, not bad eh... OK back to the point. So i called him and ask if my phone is in his car he said no. My heart was thumping like shit already and my brother helped me call... MY PHONE WAS KANAH OFF. So i ask my bro to sms and ask the whoever to return it if by any chance he/she feels guilty. It was gone. omg. I call my dad, i told him it was lost. Somehow i find that his tone of speaking was not right, if i LOST my phone, i bet u a 100 bucks he will scream at me, but he didn't... He lecture me for not taking care of my things and stuff like this. And guess what? He said... '' your phone here la, in my car" i was like... DAMN YOU. I'm like shouting into the phone and scolded him for making me so worried.. and he LAUGHED. Jerk. So my phone is safe afterall. THANK GOD. i don't know how to survive without a phone.

Nokia 7370 is pretty.

There's $&(+*\@! on monday. 8.30am FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
Hey.

My mind is working so furiously for the past minute. And I still don't know what I'm thinking. When my mind works that fast I usually feel a sense of don't-know-what over me. Like I'm too excited about something, or too worried. My heart was like thumping against my ribs and the feelings are sinking into me. I felt so terrible. I just want to close my eyes and fall asleep with nothing to think about. But obviously it is impossible.

I will be more than willing to write out a million thank you just to show how much we or at least I, appreciate him. I thought he was lying when he told me that he still cares about us. But now I know he is not lying. =)

Everytime when wonderwoman makes a appearence, my heart like stop beating. She really can kill me if she wanted to. Maybe because i still don't know the power of the rest of the justice league yet. Haha. justice league huh... what a name to come up with. Anyway, i'm sleepy now.

if u freaking hell dare to break your promise, i am so gonna kill u. U GET THAT?


we are pathetic.
I cross my fingers and pray that i'll be able to go thailand. .. haha.

Wonderwoman sms me again today. Was asking a lot of questions that i really don't know whether i should answer or not. But i did anyway, i thought she ought to know about the situation now. Not that she will be able to do anything, but at least let her know. If she bothers to ask me, it just proves that she cares about us.

FLOWER SUX. SHE REALLY SUX! If he don't care about us he wouldn't have come down in the first place! You think he so free, come down just to laugh at you all? You think he got nothing else better to do is it!? Keep your mouth clean and stop talking bad about him!! I know even if you do, he also won't care BUT WE DO. The person you are criticising about is the person WE respected you dumbo!!!!

I will go to the extent of quitting. If that's the only way i'll do it. And i really mean it.
totally disappointed in everything that is happening now.
Hey. Been 6 days since i've post any entries... wasn't intending to post any but was thinking that, erm, make use of it. ok. WHATEVER.

Anyway, i was very very very VERY angry with certain people, certain things. I just don't understand why people just LOVES to go one big round and shoot others right at the back. HELLO? We have names you know!? You can do us a GREAT favour by addressing us with our lovely names given by our lovely parents you DUMBASS. I mean is that so difficult to say out our names? We are certainly not afraid of losing our faces, we lost enough during "her" era, we don't mind losing it somemore.

Like what ronald says, even THAT is boring... [ you know i'm not suppose to post it out] and so i agree. IT IS BORING. I force myself to laugh out so much it hurts. It wasn't funny anymore. It was not even fun. The atmosphere just not the same, and i'm really very disappointed. I get back to sleep at night thinking what will happen to us... though i know i always think of that. But seriously, does ANYONE think what will happen to us or NOT? Sometimes i wonder, why should i bother so much when there's obviously no one cares? shit this *toot*

Those who know what and who i'm talking about... go gossip whatever you want to whoever you want. Because i really don't care. I just got one more fucking pathetic year and i'm out of here. HA-HA-HA. People who actually really did gossip, i urge you to go do some reflection on yourself, because you are no better off than me. Well, if you know exactly what i means which i bet you don't.

NOW i FINALLY know the reason WHY. It completely wipes off my mind that he was NOT with us the last two years. Those two years when we got some really torturous training [or so i think] from wonderwoman, he wasn't with us AT ALL. THATS WHY, thats why he don't feel the same why as we do. That's why he say he feels that we are closer among ourselves than to him. OK, now i finally found out the reason, and we can finally work on it. So it means we got much more experience than he does and it means he can pretty much keep his mouth shut. =x because what we knew, he don't. I'm not here to offend him, but its the fact! That's why i keep finding it strange all this while... NOW I FINALLY KNOW THE REASON WHY.

Ok, Daddy says we are going thailand on like wednesday... I HOPE HE DON'T LIE. I will skin him alive if he says the trip is cancel. Because i am so looking forward to all the shoppings i can get when i'm there and if he EVER cancel it... he's so gonna get it from me.

I'm on harry potter's marathon again. Reading Goblet of Fire now... i'm suppose to finish it by 3 days [ i finished half-blood prince in 3 days] and i thought i can do the same for GOF. But i didn't. Ever since i came back from that camp, my energy just left so little is only enough to keep me awake for at most 3 hours. I spent my time sleeping and sleeping to gain back my energy which i know is not of any use. But i'm really sleepy... imagine getting only 3 hours of sleep everyday. I'm glad is all over now because i will rather choose to flush myself down the toilet and get drown in the sewage than continue with this camp.

Ok, that's all for now. I want to carry on with my GOF.
and i'm coming up with a xmas skin soon, i think. =) cheerios~
Supposed to meet Leng in mrt at 11am, and guess what, I woke up at 11.11am =) She just left her house at this time too, 'cause i called her. I thought she wait for very long but nah... she was late too.
I quickly get up and prepare, but i didn't had any breakfast you know... how sad. Anyway, I am still LATE. She came over to Sengkang and i'm still late. *sigh. haha

Went to Shaw House and bought tickets for Aeon Flux.
Actually it was supposed to be a surprise for mel. The surprise goes like this... Leng told her i couldn't make it today and i will be celebrating for her the next time round. And suddenly i appear out of nowhere. It SUPPOSE TO BE PERFECT I THOUGHT. It went on smoothly and i did appeared and she goes... "ehh, i knew it. jy surely gt come one." Ok, she guessed it. She was like saying... ni bu ke nen mei you lai de... -.-" what if i really didn't come? ok, so i give her the big comfy and soft tomato me and leng looked for 2 days. =) it was big and round ok... so nice to hug.

Went to tcc, where Leng worked. It was a treat from mel. The food was great, the milkshake was.. well, shaking in my stomach now. =) It was nice lah overall.
happy birthday again.
i love them lots. No one can replace them ever =)

Oh, thanks a lot larry. You are such a WONDERFULLLLL person. He and nessa come up with a gathering for us Pri sch frens and it was at 8 dec. I couldn't make it you see there's camp on this date. So i told him and he was SO KIND he pushed it to further dates. And i told him again i'm going overseas during 14th he was SO KIND again for putting the gathering on 12 or 13... thats nice of him =)
I kinda miss my primary school friends. yea, so long since i meet up with them.
Ehh...I'm suppose to do these as told by my cuzzie... oh well. I'm bored anyway.

7 random facts about me:
1. rebellious i say
2. i love animals =)
3. i'll like to go to switzerland
4. i can't stand dirt
5. i hate arrogant people
6. i miss my seniors
7. thinks a lot. =)

7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die:
1. i still want to go switzerland
2. keep a dog as a pet
3. scuba diving
4. tell everyone how much i love them
5. gold
6. pass all my money to my parents
7. die while i'm asleep. =D

7 Things I Can't Do:
1. to fly
2. and to smoke. i hate whoever who smokes
3. drug abuse
4. catch bugs with bare hands
5. spilling out my feelings
6. slap carrot
7. kill ppl who i hate

7 Things That Scares Me:
1. faizah =x haha.
2. ghost
3. darkness
4. dirt
5. next year
6. bugs
7. FATS =)

7 Most Important Things In My Room:
1. my bed
2. wardrobe
3. study desk
4. my soft toys =D
5. fan
6. jigsaw puzzle
7. undergarments.

7 People I Would Love To See Doing This:
1. anyone who read this and would like to do it.
2. ''
3. "
4. "
5. "
6. "
7. send to my email i think. the hotmail one.

my heart is tearing itself apart. i think it can't handle the shock it has just now. sorry.

but i'm speechless. because i've got no power in such things and they are pulling everybody down. really. it sucks