Saturday, April 30, 2005
went for school today for geo lesson. i tot i was late...make me walk so fast >.< and when i reach...i see the canteen was EMPTY. cos i told cheryl they all to wait for me at canteen. i really tot i was late for a minute...rush to the locker...took my book and then was going to make my way up when i saw eugenia. whew...and i noe i wasnt late...companied her to her locker took her book...went up stairs and saw gerald and gang from far...waved and contd our way up...the homeroom was like so empty...just a few ppl. so i went out to find cheryl they all...and they are still nt here...instead i saw ziwei...so i went up to the room with her...stayed at the room while waiting the cheryl they all. they finallyyyyy came. they are always late...argh.anyway...bel was even more late....and she even brought her breakfast along.
after lesson...we went to bb court.went out to 7-11 to buy fnb for us and the guys....they still owe me $ 2.35 >.< have our picnic..and then we slack awhile...and then we went to play. it was so fun but i practically ran out of breathe. was chasing them for the bball and running ard to avoid that cheryl...she ar...keep defencing and touched places that she shldnt. =x haha. went home ard 12.30pm. saw ah goh...and force him to treat us drink...so cheapo lor...we told him is 3 for $2 he then buy -.-" after that i went home.
i slept 17 hrs ytd...=D from 2.30pm to 7.15am =D and i finally had enuff sleep..i'm so awake now. muahahaha.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
don u ever dare to pretend that nothing has happen. so much so much has happen that even i donno how to react to it. but u! u actually take it so easily and totally forgotten about me. i told myself it will be alright..is just for the time being only.. but how am i suppose to accept this fact? the fact that u are gone and the fact that we are like strangers. i hate this word 'strangers'. i don wanto use this word to describe us...but is the only word that i find it fit. i don expect a miracle or watsoeva happen between us becos i know it will NEVER happen...not anymore. thought that i can rely on u.. but i was so damn blardy wrong. i was wrong about u..all this while i've been acting like an idiot. i'm so stupid...so stupid to realise it till today. i was so so
s t u p i d!
once again i falied my physics...i only get 8/20. how pathetic is that. so i don expect much for my midyr...=)
i said this last yr and i shall say it again...
someone pls chain me to my chair and make me study! :)
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
i feel that we are complete strangers. is like...i dont noe u and u don noe me. honestly, wat have gone into us these days? u seriously have change and i dont want this to happen....i wan u to be the one i used to know last time. even when i saw u...i feel that...u are someone who i donno. if we have to become like this...i rather we donno each other in the first place. why let us meet when things will turn out like this in the end? i hope that it will become better...i will wait for that better day to come. even if it means to let me wait forever...because i cant bear to see such things happening to us. it feels strange. it feels uncomfortable...
revolving around me. is all nightmares.
Monday, April 25, 2005
sian ar...so fast exam coming le. 5th may first paper... sux lor...chinese paper change format...now harder to score liao...i bet i won't be able to get an A anymore. =(
anyway...today after school...i went to take cab to ica building to make ic. Was sitting at the staircase there waiting for cousin and i saw some familiar faces. first, i saw ivan and then i saw my pri sch mate...he doesnt even rmb me >.< he definitely become slimmer...so damn skinny. still rmb when i was sec1...we went back to pri sch and saw him...we all so shock cos he's like so skinny?? and we actually gave him things to eat and ask him to gain weight...=D he was alot more plump in pri sch days...
ok back to the subject...i was waiting for her...and when she reached, we went in...i go take photo...which looks like an idiot =Xx then went to make my ic...FINALLY. argh....last fri actually want to make de lor...and i was so stupid to forget about photocopy-ing my parents ic...
after that...cousin said she is hungry...so we went to pastamania...after eating my stomach was hurting like hell...went to toilet after that is still hurting and i feel like vomiting. went to bought a rose for mother's day [ when is mother's day? =x] then we went shopping...bought a notebook...she paid =D. damn it. i left $15 for this week....gotta claim money from my mum for the ic thingy le...actually...i already took 10 bucks frm dad...but i use eat to satisfiy my stomach =) haha.
went to take mrt...ran after bus 27...get on. alight. went home.
i need to study le...tml gt two farking tests...ss and bio. wth. i want holiday!!!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
is gonna be a better day.
be happy.
..
..
this is my story...and it goes on
Saturday, April 16, 2005
perhaps.
time will heal all wounds.no use for me crying so much.
all i can say is...i want u to
take care of urself too..
have a
happy life..not wat u have before.
i love u. =)
Thursday, April 14, 2005
u cant erase me frm ur memory. memories will be there forever..i don wanna lose u.
u cant do this to me...u are hurting me.
u are tearing my heart into pieces.
that wasnt suppose to be a birthday present
u don have to make me cry...
u can try to forget him all u want...
but why must u include me in...
pls...
i want u to be who u are..
the cheerful and happy gal
the gal who laugh with me...
who play with me...
i love u and i don wan u to go away...
pls come back...the thought of u makes my eyes teary
i cant live without u.
i really want u to be in my life..not in my memory
i want u to be by my side
not somewhere far away...
come back...
u arent like this...don let this ruin who u are
don let this ruin ur life......
don leave me alone.
pls don leave my life...
i want u back here with me.
don make me cry..
make me smile.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
WAHAHAHA. =x i'm so excited. ppl u shld be too. hehe. one beri significant day is on its way!! hmm...2 day nia leh 2 days~~ hehe...
so here's my wonderfully created wishlist:-
` ps2 :)
`nike dunk
`converse shoes
`billabong shirt
`billabong cap
`mp3 player
`sony digital cam
`big big pillow! =D
`more clothes :)
`jigsaw puzzle 0.O
so the list goes on. and last but nt least...in order to fulfill this impossible task i need one last thing. MONEY!! money money and MORE money wahahah. cheerios~
damn. tml gt chem test...but u noe wat? i don wanna study...chem is such a redundant [ did i spell it correctly?] subject. hmph! and best thing is..friday..which is THE wonderful day...we gt geo test...wat a nice present. bleahs
Monday, April 11, 2005
coco lee is pretty =D.
..
Perhaps i take things too seriously and emotionally. but u should think over of wat you had did. yes u should..i hope sat performance will be cancel~ >.< i cant have fun on friday le lah. xp
i noe i'm gonna did VERY VERY badly for the stupid midyr. and i mean VERY. cos is like...i cant understand phy and amths? is so hard to get a hang of it. darn.
sigh. i'm tired of things around me. i need a break from my life.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
i feel so lost. i feel so confuse. i feel so out of place. something is very wrong.
i'm angry yes i am. and i am sad. for wat u have done i really cant accept.
i always thought of u no matter wat i do. i nv fail to include u in things that i do.
but why cant u guys think of me. instead of always leaving me out.
u noe how terrible it feels? even if it is just small matters?
u nv had the taste of being neglected.
and u always hurt me in a way or other.
i don wanna say a word about it.
all i can do is bearing the pain myself. everytime.
i donno who else i can tok to. except myself.
i cried myself to sleep that night. convincing myself that it would be alright.
but the more i think...the more pain my heart gets.
i just feel all so hurt.
i feel that...
god. i shouldnt be born in the first place.
pls. kill me. buried me alive. stab me over and over again.
i don wanna live.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
i'm not sure izzit beocs of ytd pe lesson...now my back de muscle is hurting me like HELL. and i cant walk properly...cant sit properly...i am worse than a pregnant women having to hold my back all the time. Damn.
what's worse..i am sick. thx to the weather, many ppl fall sick. coughing, runny nose and i sneeze like one crazy gal. sigh.
so i din went for school today. but i'm feeling terrible cos of my back...i have to sit up so straight even when i'm typing now.
i am SO worried for my midyr. i cant cope well with my studies especially the sciences. example PHYSICS. i hate physics...i would be able to understand if we din change tcher..nt that i say the tcher now nt good..but i more comfortable with my previous physics cher. agree anyone? =Xx i guess i need to be mentally prepare to flung my exams.. i wanted to have tution...but i don have the time to do so...how how how. >.<
why must the thingy be on 16 april? argh...i cant stay out late on friday le.THX SO MUCH xp
lalala...ppl~ 9 more days to go..wahahha
Friday, April 01, 2005
it's a friday. well...it's a tiring day. since monday till today...my eyelids are so heavy..is like...i can simply sleep even if i am standing. i grab every chance i can to doze off...i am damn blardy tire.
this tiredness had 'accompany' me for weeks. i never feel abit energetic before. never. i yawn and yawn even when i'm typing this. i wish to quit school...quit the life i had now. and i want to take a loonngg rest from the busy life. all i noe now is i never get enough sleep...i feel so terrible. i wish i can close my eyes and sleep forever. sigh.
i am afraid for my midyr. i cant cope with my subjects...and yes, i do thought of going for tution...but think again...i am already very tired frm all these *cca* practice and school...and i having a terrible headache...i don think i can handle the tution..so. it's a no. i uses my sat and sun to sleep to rest...so i would NEVER put any academic related stuff on these two days...5 days of school is enough for me. yawns. i don wanna fail my midyear. girl~ buck up !
everyone! 15 of april is a significant day =D remember it hor~ hahaha. =Xx