Sunday, March 27, 2005
we walk 4 and a half hour on friday. just to find a place where is quiet..and to find the coffeebean where is lesser ppl. so i told them. clarke quay is quiet. and then we went to clarke quay we walk and walk and walk and ask a uncle for direction. but i rmb is nt beside a mac...but anyways we tried our luck. yea i was right..it was starbucks nt coffebean and then we walk on again. this time we ask another person...the uncle told us is at boat quay nt clarke quay....-.-" so we walk back again and we finally reach.
we sat down ordered some coffee and cakes...we were full..and i mean very very full. after that we went off again...we walk back to esplanade..sat there stare into air..and so....we sat there till 8pm + then we start walking again...we walk and walk and walk into wrong direction....walk back to the right direction again and then we walk into wrong direction...again...-.-" then right again. started to get hungry....we went to kfc...it was 9pm+ then.. we are tempted by the taco bell but in order nt to let ourselves getting any fatter we refrain from it...instead we order 3 cups of lemonade...leng had the biggest. after that...we walk again...wanted to stay overnight. walk to dobhy ghaut* board the train...leng's mum called and ask her back...so i decide to go home to..if not just me and mel..it wouldnt be fun...wats more they are tired..so am i. went home bathe...eat...and back to bed.
that day...was such a memorable day =x we will rmb coffeebean for life. took us so long to find it. and is a walking day...long hours of walking...whoo...
walking..
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
i don feel like blogging.
yawns.
yesterday is a sucky day...really sux =x and we gt chase down frm the lorry...argh damn the 'cher =x but we had a great laugh in the bus.
i ... i am speechless.
Monday, March 21, 2005
i wanna change my blogskin...yet my lazy brother till now also never install the photoshop for me..blehs~
anyway...today, as usual it was a super boring day with practically nth interesting and nth to do. Chemistry was like some kind of qna game...sundram write the name of the chemical and we were given whiteboards...write down the ans as fast as possible and lift up for her to see. ya ya..it was lame...but it was better than those boring dead lessons she normally carry out.
after bio lesson...me and kel stayed back...we had a little talk with mrs azlan...about *something* haha. and we went for -cca- -.-" ya...
cca . it was so so boring today...and i simply cant wait for tml cos we can dismiss early frm class =D lala...i'm looking forward =) and lunch is provided..yupyup...money is saved! haha.
went for a haircut just now....had a little chat with the uncle. he was so funny...and always crack jokes...if all hairdresser were like him..it will be good =)
i gt a strange feeling within me...i dont feel good at all...
is like...something bad is gonna happen..
.sigh...i feel so awkward...so...argh.
god damn it, kill me pls.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
damn...this holiday is so not a holiday for me. I was so so tired...there's tons of homework to do...i wanna complain!! is ONE week holiday not ONE month...wats up with the tchers?! is there a need for them to give us so many homework?...somemore i gt band practices...is like..i'm not a superwoman ya noe. s i g h.
i cross my fingers. i wish , i hope. even if they are gonna strike back next year...i hope we will never collapse.
hmm. tuesday i'll be able to escape frm afternoon lesson...wahahha.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
i hate my mother and i hate her frens! is like..wat the fuck is wrong with her? she scolded me last night for the stupid unreasonable incident happened somedays ago...this is how it goes..
Her fren along with her fren's daughter came over to my hse..and before they are even outside my bro's room (i was in his room by the way) they suddenly said hi. it was a very casual hi...and i tot i noe them.. i din wear my specs so i cant see them clearly...after they said hi to me...i was hesistating to ans back cos i trying to see who was it..and b4 i could even said it...they went into my mother's room. later this afternoon my mother told me...' eh gal..just now my fren say hi to you u nv say back har.' then i was like...err..no..but i did nod my head to them..then she told me her fren say i was rude...like wat the FUCK!?? just because i din say that HI to them...they said i was rude!?????
ytd night she came into the room and tell me bout that stupid thing again...she said her fren told her i was very proud...-___- ...and then she said wat..they wanto come into the room but they see i nv say hi they say..'don la don go la...she very unfrenly like tat' fuck u man...i was very angry angry damn angry with her lor. she told me i change she say i very rude very...wadeva. then she say...' this afternoon ask u bring my uniform down u sigh here sigh there then make me walk to hse dwnstair when i say we meet halfway.' i was like...hello!?? i need to prepare lor u think i wad? superman arh? freaking hell... she just trying to save her fucking face lor...just because her fren told her i'm this i'm tat then she blame everything on me... ya ya ur that FREN is the BIGGEST k? i just tell her '' k wadeva! i'm the one at fault k??! everything ur fren say is right...ya i'm rude i'm proud wadeva!''
u think i give a damn to wat ur fren has said?? is UR FREN nt mine! just becos i din say hi to them...just becos of that freaking word HI!! they can simply badmouth me..simply say this and tat...arhh!!
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was so damn angry i cry and cry.. is been so long since i cry till like tat..in my mind i was just thinking. ur fren ur fren ur fren u are always saying about how ur fucking grp of frens say about me then u simply accept wadeva they say and u think they are RIGHT! hello!? OBASAN! u r my mother for goodness sake!!
i've been so stress...up till now i din even say a word to anyone about how i feel. i just kept everything to myself and told myself..it will be over just don think so much. i have this thinking in me...just so that i can held back my emotion even times when i really feel like breaking down. i gt so many things to do i even more tire then my freaking mother. i need to worry bout my studies i need to worry for my cca. i need to cope with this 2 things and i am HUMAN i will be TIRED!! she just thinks that she is the only one that is tire she keep saying me scolding me she keep saying i din help her do chores. when i help her she din even bother then i din do she will blame me...and keep complaining how tire she is and wadsoeva. ya ya WADEVA. u think studying is very easy nowadays arh? u think is so easy u come and try la... i din tell any of my family members...cos even if i do they will nv understands and just tick me off. and even ytd midnight i just sit alone in the living and cry my heart out...
i AM physically tire and i am mentally tire...even thou is holiday i keep worrying for my studies...when i tell my dad bout my result he scold me say i did badly...when i tried to explain to him is becos now i gt more subjects and is diff from last 2 yrs thats why i did badly...he just scold me say i did bad for it and stuff like tat.. he simply don understand wad i try to say...he donno bout chem phy bio he donno amths he donno any of the sub and he simply thinks is very easy....i am so tire with them... cant they just give me a break cant they just shut their fucking mouth up and stop bothering bout me. my studies and my attitude!!!
fine fine...u can say my attitude sucks nowadays or wad...but have u ever ever wonder why i change in my attitude!??? i've been trying to keep myself happy..and u noe how hard tat is? u noe how much i have gone thru by MYSELF!? alone!? there is nobody with me all this while i've been trying to survive everything alone and wat the hell do u expect more!! i am not perfect ok..there is times when i am very troubled everytings so would u pls KINDLY STOP TICKING ME OFF JUST BECOS OF WAD UR FRENS HAS SAID!!!! UR FRENS IS NONE THE HELL OF MY BUSINESS!!!!!
i really really fuck up with her frens man...of all her frens..tat grp of shop in frens is the worse of the worse except for some.
this msg is SPECIALLY for that aunty : HI AUNTY .paiseh har...i nv say HI to you tat day! sorry for being so RUDE AND PROUD. i am an IMPUDENCE ILL MANNERED CHILD so SORRY. if u don like it...if u AND ur daughter not happy becos i nv said HI. then u can simply DON COME TO MY HSE or if u insist on coming u can PRETEND u nv see me fine!? and mind you...SHUT THE FUCK UP MOUTH OF YOURS and STOP BADMOUTHING ME BEHIND MY BACK! not happy with me!? say RIGHT INTO MY FACE LAH... freak you man.
...wat the hell.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
it doesnt really matter how many i have recognize...cos i noe in me... there will be only one. thats the promise i've made and i made sure i'll never break it. trust me.
ok..this is boring.