Saturday, July 31, 2004
Me got some messages for my
peeps out there...I've been keeping it in my
heart for so long i really feel very uncomfortable..I want to tell you all how exactly i feel about you guys but i just donno where to start..However me will not specified the name orh...
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her > In my heart, you have always been the best. I've always treasured u...You are a fren i never ever had before...And u really means alot to me. I don wish to lose you...But sometimes you don seems to understand people...And you wont want to go understand it...I noe coz u tell me lotsa time before...I just wanna tell you no matta wad has happen...Maybe quarrels between us or any misunderstandings...i hope it will be cleared...Maybe sometimes i'm too much or my actions have made u feel fed-up...But u see, i'm not perfect...and i'll never will be. I got my reasons for doing things and i noe you have always been there for me whenever i need you and i'm sorry that sometimes i have ignore ur kindness...But inside me i really appreciate it...Is just that i donno how to express it out...Sometimes i really feel that you are gone...But when i think of the day u have explained to
us and wishing that
we could understand you...when i think of it i really feel much more better...coz i noe you too have ur own reasons...Maybe some things might have change your impression on me like some
gossips but you have noe me well and long enuff i guess you noe wad is the right thing...Ya...i've got nothing else to say le lor...Lurve ya!
*her > Gal...u too the best man...always there for me always lend me a listening ear...wadeva happen there is always you around...I'm really thankful...i love you hehe...There's time i might have neglected you...But it doesn't mean that i don care about you coz in my heart you always have a special place. Life's gonna be tough for u soon...endure through it ya? Me too will be there for you de orh...me shi hen you xing de...
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him > wad happen ar? why must u act like everything is my fault lyk tat? Is not lyk you lor...It kinda hurtin me...really...everytime i see you, then you like sian sian like argh i donno ar...Then u also nv tok to me online liao..I noe you've some misunderstandings with One but it doesn't concern me mah...why are you doing this to me? Just thinking of this bring tears to me eyes...If i really did something wrong ust tell me hao mah?
Stop treating me like that....You weren't like this last time...You weren't...
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him > I guess i have tell you alot of things that needed to be told. Sometimes you shuld just listen to me lor and don make rash decisions that might ruin ur social life. See wat you have done? Haiyoyo...anyway..You have been a nice fren and always lend me a listening ear too...Me hen appreciate orh! keke...And don always think of the negative side of everything...It might not be as bad as you think it will be...kk...You must treat --ya noe-- better...that's wad you have promise me...better be done hor...that's all bah...Ciao~
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him > hey dude...Wanto tell you hor...i don wanto lose another fren le...I scare you also change until like him...then ignore me..It really hurts to be ignore ya noe...Maybe sometimes my actions made you think otherwise...But is really not wad you think lor...I still got treasure you...and i never don lyk you before...Coz u always made me feel that i have made you misunderstood some things or wat...Then you don wan to tell me...But i can see de la...If it isn't then erm...heh...maybe is i think too much le bah...anyway...
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last but not
least
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HER > You? Hah i've got nothing to say. I hated you from the first time i saw you and this has never been change. I tried to be frenly with you...even thou i really don like you...but you don wan right? Oh then FINE! Coz you sux! Don like my attitude huh? you haven see my
real attitude man...Hey, ur attitude is no better or should i say you are the most worst person i have ever ever met...So many things has change ever since ur appearence...but i have always tried to accept it...when things got better you made it worst...so LET BE IT. And you farker dare to say me selfish? Tok without thinkin? Are you describing urself? u are the one who tok without using that farking brain of yours not me! How farking long MONTHS you have noe me!? Shut the hell up you bitch!!! You say i tok wadeva i like hurt ppl also donno...U ALWAYS DO THAT! and not only me feel this way alot of ppl feel this way too! Since you tok to ppl including me without using your brain! I'll do the same and now younoe how it feels? Just FUCKK OFF!! coz i HATE YOUUU!!!
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Me blog de song load beri the long seh...
Haix...Why can't our class be united? Just for once? Just because of a class t-shirt could turn the whole class unside down. Quarrels, shouting, crying. Just because of a thing like this...Really no unity eh. Majority actually wanted the shirt except for the two JINX who don't want..If they no money the class could like help them pay abit or wat but they just die die don't want...Sick of them man. Better separate lar next year...I can't be bothered bout this class le. Can't they just use their useless brain and think...this is the last year we are in the same class lor...one t-shirt as ji nian not ask them cut their flesh right...Haix..good thing we not sec 4 ar..not same class but still same school mah...hor...But we decide that we want the shirt le..So...the TWO will have no shirt lor...sice they donwan..no point forcing them also.
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Anyway..
Wo zhen de hen xiang zhi dao, wo dao di zhuo cuo le she me? Wei she me ni zhe yang dui wo...ni gen ta bu he you bu shi gen wo..wei she me ni yao long de hao xiang shi wo de cuo...Mei chi kan dao ni wo xing jiu tong...ni bu yao zhe yang hao mah...bu yao zai zhe yang le...ru guo wo zhen de zhuo cuo le she me ni gao shu wo! bu yao zhe yang dui dai wo!!
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Haiyoyo...today the maths common test i sure flung like hell one lor. Me never do alot alot of the question...i left about 2 more pages to go and tat stupid mr goy said left 5 more minutes..5!! Wah...i give up lor...just anyhow do, coz i noe sure wont able to finish on time one..Haiz...mr goh gonna kick my a$$ this time...*pray hard* hope i wont fail..no matter wat...
Wats wrong with you? You don seems so happy...when i smiled at u...u did wave back...but just so strange..i kinda hurt..by ur actions..I may be too sensitive..but i'm jus so hurt...u seldom talk to me nowadays and i don even noe wad hav i done wrong...could you...could you pls stop acting this way? i really don wish to lose you..
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Ooh...I want 6230 so so badly. I've been saving for the past few weeks and I've onli got about..$60+? And plus some savings in my account? I don think i can even touch the fone man. My sickening godbrother bought it and makes my heart itchy lor...if not i also wont want it so eagerly..but i browse through the fone and it was like WOW! so save money...eat lesser...also can go on diet at the same time...hehe. Hope my parents could at least support me some money..then I don have to save until like wanto die like tat...
Eek, I so fat!! I wanna jian fei jian fei! Hmph! Must exercise, jog more...but nowadays keep raining so i have to like do sit-ups and "crunches" (not sure if spelled like this) at home...heh..and i hurt my butt...me do it on the floor and well...hurt it just like tat..Ouch nor..walk or sit also pain...-.-"
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Sick...
Friday, July 23, 2004
Yawnx...Slept at 7pm yesterday all the way until this morning de 5.45am...Still sleepy and i'm having headache. Cough and cough until my head so heavy. And wat's worst is my voice..out of tune AGAIN..haix..my b-e-a-utiful voice is gone...keke
During english lesson, Mrs Saggy never come!! Whoaho~ And the young young pretty teacher came and take over. Erm, it was a big mistake...but we like it. The more soft the teacher is...the more we love it..yea~
oOhh...my nose. Is blocked and i couldn't breathe...so uncomfortable so i borrowed the axe oil from my "fren". Starting i just dip a little bit on my nose but i couldn't feel anything so i put alot and is so HOT!! And my fren was like laughing..rather than helping...-.-" so i splash some water on it...argh..sho shick. I can be the doctor's regular customer le..
~*'A.great.friend.like.you
i.will.never.want.to.lose.
Someday.i.wish.i.could.just.tell.you
How.much.you.mean.to.me
and.how.much.i.love.you!'*~
mUacKs...
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Oh that is so great...there's actually people who wanted to be ME..isn't that great! But i'm sorry to say that no matter what YOU do or say...u will never be ME and never will be! hohoho...coz there's only one and onli ME!! hehe
Darling ar darling mel...Don cry don sad...Me and leng will be behind you always...There's still prelim and o' level...there is still chance..treat his words as nothing...he is always sarcastic...don ever overstress urself and never wake up in the middle of the night and study k..not good for your health...kkaix
Muacks..
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
*muacks* thanks Joan! For the bag you've given...Is well...a typical PINK colored converse bag. But i'll treasure it a lot...=) I fall sick again. Cough and cough...always sick one....one month must sick one time....donno why also...Been so tired lately and so SLACK...Few more months to streaming eh....i don't wish to end up in normal academic...Must maintain my standard...cannot cannot drop.
Sec 4 going off soon...haix...xiang dao jiu sad.
I really wish to treasure the time we had lor...but SHE doesn't seems to bother....and like trying to act dao like tat. Why can't she be herself? She really change. I donno izzit for the better......or for the worse. I really had no idea. My heart bleeds when i see her like this...
I'll miss the days we had together....haix...those good old days. But i'm sorry for troubles i had brought to you all...for watever troubles that is...*smoochhhh*
i need money money...$$$ hohohoho
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Woke up this morning bout 6am...so tired....really so so tired. Many question marks have pop up in my head...Questions that i have no answer to.
Should i like her a not? is she really a good fren or is she my enemy...sometimes i really hated her...so much i really want to rip her apart. I never had such fren before...not that i'm trying to say i'm perfect..but...is not onli me don lyk her is alot alot of ppl becoz of her attitude and her manners.whenever she say ppl she will laugh laugh and nv think how the person feels...she jus take it as a joke...and if u say her she will giv u one fucking damn face. And she takes ppl thing without permission and thats one thing i realli hate it....really really hate it..One day i'll just slap her man...she going too far..
Wad are frens for...u always told me that...But now..I dont think i will have the chance to hear it frm u anymore...I donno wad happen...i donno wad i've did...Are we still frens...I really wonder...what exactly have i done to deserve this...WHY ARE U TREATING ME LYK THIS!!! >.< WHY...why...u simply ignore me...don even bother to tok to me...i really hate this...
Why is my life lyk this?
Why can't it be simple...
simple...
is what i want...
i wanto get away frm this place
and i donwan to remember any part of it...
not even the good memories i had
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
yuHoo~ so long never update le hor...anyone mish me? hohoho...me nth better to do go cut hair...so regret man. That auntie lyk not happy with me lyk tat...my mama and korkor cut untiol so stylo then me anyhow cut...eEk!! but nvm lar...will grow back de. I looks lyk boy boy lor and not only one person says that leh mani mani also say tat...aiyo so heartbroken..heh hair not nice nvm lar face nice can liao wahaha...ahem* hehe
Getting more slack nowadays...always daydream in class..also donno wat's wrong with me...maths lesson also daydream...i can go and die liao lar...haix. Cannot go on lyk this le lar mus workk extra super hard..streaming coming soon if i end up in a bad class...i go jump down arh..=x oops...hope i get good results lor ya..haiz
Next monday band resuming le...why don stand down for 1 month leh...hehe..Syf dou over le then also not in NDP le...sad..we are quite good also mah..Bowen band always the best!! hohoho...anyway, yar...go band oso nth to do le..might as well let us rest more...so can study mah...hor~ -.-"
Poor poor prakash...he in hospital right now...gt lung infection lyk me last time but i no so serious until must hospitalize...coz he gt asthma during syf tat day...he still go for competition..big sacriface he has made. Just hope nothing will happen to him bah...get well soon orh~
Monday, July 05, 2004
We din win...anythin at all. We have work so damn hard for the past 6 mths and in the end we get nothing in return...I always hope that we will win...But yet the result is like this. Why? It is always tk who gt it...they have been winning for 4 yrs already...4 yrs! We work so hard for 6 mths and just put on a 8 mins show...Hear the heartbreaking results for 5 mis and the pain in the heart is forever...How can i take this easily?...The leaders always say 2 yrs later...How many more 2 yrs must we wait...We waited for 10 yrs...10 yrs already now we have to wait for another 2 more yrs...If the alumni were to be able to help us i think we wont end up like this also...Thanks to THE INSTRUCTORS AND THE SCHOOL!!! for not letting the alumnis to help...If they allow to help we wont end up like tat...THX A LOT...I hate the instructors man...they did not do anything...we work so hard and they take all the credits! I hate them man! How i wish our instructors are not them...They really sux alot...(sorri for saying this...)
Haiz..but we did our best already and there's nothing we can do about it... Just to wait for another 2 more yrs...I believe tk cant be the one who always win...They will fall someday...They will...
No matter wad happen...whether we win or lose...Bowen band will always be #1!!